I can relate AJ. Trauma for me similar to your own. I'm so sorry. I was 16 too.
My mother responded in a very similar way. I don't even think she believed me. People don't like to look at taboo, it's too difficult for them. My mother would not have liked to think that something such as happened to us could happen to
her daughter. She was defending her own position, not mine. It hurt me badly.
I agree with Anna, that the best we can do is to stop trying for our mother's love, and begin to love ourselves. I needed to be sober to do this. Drinking only compounded my feeling of low self esteem and self worth, and I knew I had to stop if I was ever about to reclaim myself.
I've been sober a little over 3 years now AJ, and I will never turn back. One day at a time
Have recently started therapy with a trauma specialist, and feel safe with her. I wish the same for you.
Things aren't brilliant for me AJ, but I now find myself in a position where I can find, not lose myself any longer.
Congratulations on 3 days. This is the beginning of a great and epic journey. Take it in both hands.