AJ, I'm sorry for all you've been through. I understand that a traumatic childhood creates so many problems, including low self-worth. Like you, I was codependent with my mother, desperate for her love and attention. I never got it. The best thing I did was to stop trying. AJ, you are a survivor and you are strong. Use that to begin to build your self-worth. Put yourself first as you are going through the early days of recovery. You are worth it.