Thank you! Baby is starting to sleep more at night, which is awesome. We are starting to get into a routine, which I love, since I prefer routine and life with an active addict has none.
I've had a few really hard days, I'm sure hormones are still wreaking havoc in my system. It's so hard to have a new baby who looks just like dad, and watch his sister's love on him, while their dad is who knows where.
It blows my mind that someone would choose alcohol, pot and porn, over their family. It's hard to remember on those days that he isn't doing this to us, he's just doing it.
It doesn't help that the 4 year old misses him terribly. She's been waking in the night crying for him. Lately too when she gets in trouble she immediately starts crying for him.
I know that this too shall pass. It's truly sunk in for me that I haven't lost anything. I have full custody of the kids, I'm getting my house back in order, with child support I'm financially ahead, I have peace and calm (as much as possible with small kids.) Life is great. But I still miss my idiot husband.