I am so sorry to read that you are still struggling, Prop. It sounds as though things have really taken a turn for the worse in your life. Jumping into sobriety and recovery with both feet would likely be a good thing. AA could be a great resource; one of their sayings “it works if you work it” would be something to keep in mind; just like achieving anything truly worthwhile in life, commitment and willingness to put forth the effort are key - commitment to sobriety, commitment to recovery and commitment to AA’s program.
Good to hear that you have enlisted the help of your doctor.
A better way of life awaits, Prop. Lean on us; we are here to help.