Thanks for your kind words, Zencat! Your posts are always kind, thoughtful, funny, and wise. I appreciate you!
I definitely have a tendency to introspect and overthink. I've got to keep my mind in check. Action is the only way out of my problem, but I insist on spending some time contemplating my WHY. Because I want to share it. Warn others. Scream from the hilltops, "Listen to yourselves!!"
While I do that, I will never drink/drug again, and I will never change my mind.
I abused substances to tame something that needs to be let free. I was trying to swallow my God-given emotions so that I could play a sweet, docile part. I was full of self-centered fear that being myself would not be enough. And I think that other people (especially) women, should be made aware of the danger that living for everyone else's benefit poses.
So I will ACT and I will THINK and I will SPEAK.