It's my birthday today and I'm alone as I will be for Xmas. Tried to plan a nice day for myself but it didn't work out very well and also I just feel down and also not feeling well physically.
December is hard month for me. I thought I hsd it all figured out and it would be fine. Think I underestimated how hard it is.
I mean I'm ok though just feel like crap. I don't want to drink but I keep thinking of it. It seems so weird not to drink sometimes. Also normally a ****** day or week I would just say f it and drink
So I'm not. On my way home not sure what else to do. Wanted to get takeout for dinner if I can get the energy to walk there.
I just feel like a sad sack but it will pass.