I have come to conclude that there is a type of alcoholic who can only recover by completely submitting to the recovery program of Alcoholics Anonymous. I have no idea whether you are one of those types (I am), but if you are -- then avoiding meetings because you are concerned about your public persona is akin to refusing to go to chemo because you don't want anyone to see you at the clinic. Countless public figures attend A.A. these days, and for the most part no one in the meetings cares that they're famous. In the meetings, we're all just drunks who have found a solution and are now sharing our experience, strength, and hope as part of our own program of recovery and to help the next suffering alcoholic who walks through the door. And these days you can even dip your toe into AA meetings by attending Zoom meetings anonymously. Feel free to PM me if you want to chat more about any of that.