Hi Leigh
I can relate to how you are feeling, sometimes one just wants to USE and seek oblivion - for whatever reason!
My advice : speaking with someone face to face is going to really help yoU!!!! Where do you live? Can you look up NA in the phone book, and phone them! They can tell you where you can for a meeting so that you can be with SR type people but in person...you can also learn new tools to help you get through this and live and grow. I'd strongly recommend it. The person answering the phone is going to be a recovering addict and they KNOW where you are coming from. If you are shy someone can come and collect you.
In my experience going to a meeting, if nothing else, will help me not to use that day.
Good for you for reaching out, now I'd suggest go that one step further. I don't think you will regret it.
Cathy31
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