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I took help from may quarters... not all program related.
And I took what I liked from the Program.. and molded it to my needs... my way.
Every person is a complex composition.
To say one size fits all is unrealistic.. cause.. a person may have it on.. but.. it don't mean it's gonna fit.
I know that... for myself... I have picked through the available knowledge out there.. and it all drains down to the bottom line.
People will get help and get better when they choose to do so.
I know that I have dispaired all my life that people I loved were going to give up on me... and I would die alone..
loony...
addicted...
outside...
I know many people die there everyday. So sad.
But.. that just made me work harder... cause I began to see how much my illness was draining those around me. And I'm keeping the worst to myself.. or venting it on the net here... where it disipates into the universe.. ;o)
I am having to fight my own family and people I care about around some of my own recovery as well.
And it sucks when we're not even sure of our own path.. and we get zip for support.
But.. deep down inside.. I know that I'm being true to me...
and I'm coming to accept that...
Cause.. in the end.. it's me that has to be there for me.
And I have to believe in myself enough to do that.
So.. everyday.. I work..
And I don't really have a point here other than to encourage you to keep on.
I see you working right along beside me.. even if we're in different rows...
Every time I see your name here I toss out a prayer for you and D...
Keep on keeping on gurl.. ;o)