Thank you all for your kind thoughts. Thank you hevyn . Your post nearly brought a tear to my eye. You don’t know me at all but thought of me. That’s so overwhelming. Anyway I am doing fine . Hangover finally clearing after 3 days! Still don’t know why I put myself through it. Am I addicted? Is it just habit?is it a routine that’s been ingrained for 45 years? I don’t know. But I am getting bored of that person now and a bit angry with him as well. Think I want to reinvent myself or some parts of myself. Anyway I am rambling. Thanks again everyone.