Mags, great thread as always and thanks to everyone responding. It is helping me keep my focus. I had several day 1s and each one got harder and harder. Initally I thought it could just be a flip of a switch and I would be done. Well, as you all know that is not the case. This last one and the several days after were darn tough and a situation I never want to experience again. I need to stay in the present and not be a passive participant.