Good job on coming online for support red. I had some AV harrassment today also, glad to say I didn't give in either. Just distracted myself until I forgot about it.
What snapped me out of it was I came across a heart wrenching video, very, very sad but also warming aspects to it ofcourse (YouTube rabbit hole, I started watching a motivational video originally). Strange what snaps us out of drinking thoughts when the usual things aren't working. I think it put things into perspective for me. Seeing what other people have overcome can be inspiring I suppose.