Originally Posted by
biminiblue 
I tell you that just as a warning that you (probably) don't need. Sometimes other people give us the Grace that can kill us. They cannot and do not understand the underpinnings of shame we carry as addicts.
I hope you find a more fitting profession, if you want to continue to work.
Thanks for this, Bimini. He is definitely the kind of guy who could “grace me to death.” Even after all of this, he trusts me more than I trust myself, and that’s not healthy.
I’m so sorry to hear about your friend, but I’m glad that you shared the story. I honestly thought I might die from shame when my drug use came to light the first time. If I was given a second chance and messed THAT up, I can clearly imagine the shame being
literally fatal.
For now, I’ll stay put in my little, tidy, kid-filled house with my little, peaceful, AA-filled life. There are lots of non-dispensing pharmacy positions, if I decide to stay in the same field as I progress in my recovery.
It is not selfish to be kind and honest.