I did at first. Then I looked back at my life and thought about the things I did before drinking filled all my available time.
Turns out I still like to do many of those things.
I also discovered some additional things that I enjoy doing along the way.
As for life's meaning, I defer to Uncle Walt:
That you are here—that life exists and identity,
That the powerful play goes on, and you may contribute a verse.
Best of Luck on Your Journey!