Thank you friends. Went to the ER.where I was given IV Valium and hydration.
A weird thing happened. When I was being reviewed by the mental health team a woman in the next room heard me explaining the reason I was there and crying.
She pulled her IV over to where I laid there sobbing, grabbed my hand and said " I just want you to know that God sees your tears"
When I got home a local woman from my church called me out of the blue.
She shook me and said I was not grieving but in torment and my girl is whole and safe in the arms of God.
It gave me the ability to breathe better without panic.
I'm a little more peaceful.
I have no more benzos ( took them all ) but I'm hoping to not have to call 911 again.
Thank you all so much for the kindness. Greatly needed and appreciated.
And Steely that was a months supply of clonazepam taken in about a week.
Coming off them is excruciating