Once again I'm not sure what my goal is. I can't seem to keep up with everyone else, my neighbors, coworkers, friends, and family. People that are wildly successful. That's all I can see, is everyone that's doing better than me. I'm not going to catch up or measure up.
So what is there to change?
Impostor syndrome hits us all - but drinkings not the solution.
It will just leave you feeling like you're further behind.
Your life is not going to be great immediately...it takes work. I stopped drinking but I still had most of the things I drank over.
If this is a long standing feeling, maybe working with a counsellor is worth a thought?
my primary goal at the start was to not drink again. That was it.
I realise you have a lot of other balls in the air too, but you'll get to those.
Trying to make up for lost time is not always the best way to go.
and...thinking of drinking is not a failure or a sign that you're heading for failure.
The strength of recovery lies in not never thinking of drinking again - but in what we do in response to those thoughts
If you're like me you drank for years...it takes time to change the synapses.
Try and be patient
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