Originally Posted by
Obladi
One of the many things I learned most recently is that I need to be extremely mindful when I'm ready to jump into a change to "make things better" for myself. The front part of my brain is all gung-ho sometimes, but there's a deeper part in my brain that gets completely freaked out by that. I can't just keep shushing that part of myself that feels vulnerable. To do so is to invite disaster. It's tricky because I'm not necessarily even aware when this is happening. But I think just knowing its a thing for me is a good discovery.
This is all definitely something important for me to look at.
Once again I'm not sure what my goal is. I can't seem to keep up with everyone else, my neighbors, coworkers, friends, and family. People that are wildly successful. That's all I can see, is everyone that's doing better than me. I'm not going to catch up or measure up.
So what is there to change?