Julie.....I am glad to hear that you were able to keep your boundaries, for your own welfare
Yes, you will eventually get past his "Siren Call"....IF you keep the no contact and stay angry enough, long enough for you to move forward in your life.
Actually, I th ink that what you are missing about him is the chemical reaction that happens in your brain----in the reward center----when someone does something that make you feel pleasure (like behave in a loving manner, for example).
lol...I think it is sort of like the alcoholic who still has some cravings for that feel good feeling of those first few drinks (the buzz)----even though the alcohol is completely destroying his life, in the big picture.....
Stay strong and keep learning and working on your self.