Hi and welcome.
Being on both sides of the fence, yes, it gets worse, no we aren’t supposed to drink poison, and his addiction is choosing booze over you. It won’t change unless he wants to, and he clearly believes his life is working for him.
if you want children, do you want them with an active alcoholic ?
We aren’t well active in our addiction, we are selfish and have an immediate reward goal at ALL costs.
People who are addicted don’t drink less on the timeline.
Non addicts don’t pick drugs over the love of their life.
Addicts can only recover with complete abstinence when and IF, THEY want to. No sooner .
hugs