Originally Posted by
PeacefulWater12 
I think it was a denial in me, in my outlook. I desperately wanted it to be true even thought I knew it wasn't.
This hits me brutally
So sad, so true, so logic. so clever.
I was trying to believe that despite all this mess, she loves me, as I do love her
She was SO HAPPY each morning to having me at her side
She smiled so openly, and frankly each time we see each other
She kissed me 40 or 50 times each time we went to sleep together
She didnīt walk 1 meter without holding my hand
And that was like that for many years, and until our final breakup.
But she decided she can loose that, to priorize the boose
and her immature friends that behaves like teens even when all of them are mothers of 1 or 2 childs each one
She loved me, she wanted to live with me the rest of our lives,
And now we will be strangers, bc of the stupid binge thing?
Are any brain ready to handle that two realities?
Are a heart ready to cut itself in pieces for no reason?