Congrats on your Day 9, Five. That's wonderful.
I'm sorry you had a rough time at work. I, too, suffer from social anxiety & am self-conscious. I spent years thinking alcohol would actually help calm me down & make me more comfortable in my own skin. It ended up doing just the opposite. I never learned to resolve my problems or find a solution.
It's good that you are very self aware & realize drinking is not a way to cope with any problem. We need to stay clear headed & in control instead of trying to hide from our emotions.
I'm glad you don't intend to drink. We know where it leads. Nowhere good.