Glad you're working at it so hard, Five. It's crucial you make it through this or the struggle never ends. I also have a very active mind and have to use distractions that calm me down. Alcohol always works too but of course the effects are devastating, and get worse and worse with age. Have you ever been tested for ADHD? Some people do not have the full spectrum of symptoms. Aerobic exercise is the healthiest way I know of to deal with the mental chatter and constant voice of my overactive ego. I also found insight in the books about EGO by Eckhart Tolle - The Power of Now and A New Earth. The latter is a little easier to read.