Thanks Friends, I am going to take step 4 this month, it's about time. I agree Equus that facing what I have done, helps me be less judgemental about others. I think the 4th step will be freeing as sometimes these things I have done in the past haunt me. I really want to get beyond them. I also agree that though the behaviors have been wrong or misguided, but in the end I did not become an awful person. Thanks for that.
Thanks Minx, for your insight on the financial stuff. I do need to trust in my higher power to take care of me. Honestly, I don't worry so much about not having enough to eat or shelter, but about not having the "extras". I do trust my HP will give me what I need, so I guess I have to get my wants in line with that. On the other hand, sometimes I discount my needs and pretend that they are wants and that I can do without them. Food for thought.