Both parts actually seemed easy. The week went by quickly in hindsight, but it was like flipping a switch when I was offered the mushrooms. All of the excuses were there, I felt good, it was nice outside, my family wasn't around, it had been a long time...
I think the heart of this problem is my ambivalence. In my mind I know I want and need to be clean and sober. In my life everything is setup to continue picking up. It's making me feel like I can't take a firm stance.