lack of self esteem afflicts a lot of us I think David.
I used to gauge my worth by how others treated me.
Staying in recovery helped me realise that worth is an internal thing and I don't need everyone to like me.
If there's things about yourself that you don't like you can probably change them.
As far as finding things funny - a lot pf things other people find hilarious I don't - and vice versa.
It would be very boring if we were all the same, man
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