Streak 149
2022 - 12 sober / 0 non sober
I remain cautiously optimistic for 2022, but months 4 - 8 are when the wheels generally fall off the sobriety wagon for me, so I need to remain on guard.
My AV, after having been mostly quiet, is whispering again. It's a soft whisper and coming from a distance, but it's disconcerting to realize that beast is not yet gone.
This is part of the game the AV plays. I think I'm done with it and any part of it I do sense seems weak and innocuous, but it's actually waiting to catch me in a vulnerable moment. Then, out of the blue and with utmost ferocity, it launches into an all out frontal assault that catches me by complete surprise. Before I realize what's happened, I have a bottle in my hand.
I am increasing my readiness level to defcon 3.