Glad you're back, Max. Sometimes we just get to the point where it is adding nothing and taking away a lot.
I had no more relapses left in me and after a week sober, decided I was done. Using AVRT I have been able to finally disassociate/create separation from that stupid lizard brain once and for all. I tell it to eff-off it sends an urge over to my AV. I'm at 4 weeks and it has been surprisingly easy this time, probably because I know I'm done and it does too! Too many other issues that need my attention, lol.
You can do it. Write down all that you stand to lose, the problems it causes, etc. Post it on your mirror. Read it every morning.