Let's get something out of the way first.
Drinking is not helping your situation. What drinking is doing is nothing more than causing you to avoid the issues you need to tackle to remedy your situation.
That being said, you havent given any indication whether drinking is a problem for you. If it's got to the point where it is causing problems in your life you have come to the right place, stick around and draw strength from the advice you get here. If not you would be better served to look elsewhere to enhance your relationship prospects.
Do you know what I just did? I literally copied and pasted this line out of your comment into google:
'I CAN'T TELL ANYONE I'VE NEVER HAD A ROMANTIC RELATIONSHIP BEFORE AT 35!!!'
good news for you my friend..... there are many many others out there in the exact same situation as you, all looking for answers... and *gasp*, some of them are females!!