I did not think you were drinking
Like I said in another thread today Sasha - these are dark days but dark days will pass like any other days..we have to have faith in that.
As far as regrets and fears go - we spent so long living with those as drinkers, maybe it's time to think of new ways to look at things?
Maybe you can say, "I did those things but I am not the same person I was back then. I have nearly ten years recovery. I have a job, and a house and I am a great single mum.
The things I do today define me - not the things I did a decade ago."
hugs,
D