Hi Jessica and welcome to SR. With 4 kids and a pitty at home, I'm sure you have plenty of reasons to try and get sober. Without even having to ask, all of us here on SR know how difficult to impossible it can be trying to raise kids, do well at jobs, tend to relationships, take care of pets, etc., all while entertaining a problematic relationship with our drugs of choice. It just gets to be unworkable.
I hope you can make today Day 1 without alcohol. But whatever the case, stay on here and keep letting us know how things are.