That doesn't come off as judgmental at all, no worries. I don't have much family left besides my parents and sister who I see very often. I'm going to try to stay busy during the holidays by working and just being preoccupied by other things like things that make me laugh, or maybe sports.
The no contact thing I thought would be a little easier, especially considering the way she left it being remorseful and without any care for my well being.
Why do I still want to wish her a Happy Birthday? I understand I'm codependent, but just don't see why I'm so eager to want to hear from her? Every day I'm waking up expecting her to apologize or that every text I get is from her. I really hate this feeling.