((CW)) yes fear can mess us up you are right. The thing is part of it is healthy and fine, and part of it I guess goes to that serenity prayer what can we control and what can't we. Course if I won the lottery today (gotta play first lol) I'd be like wire this house up gimme outside lights!
I do still see a counselor. I think it will be for some time too. Lots to work through still, sure do love having that resource and alanon and places/people like this available that's for sure.
On the fear issue, she says feel it and do it anyway. So that is what I'm doing. Course at a limit due to work... It's weird though you know, last night I was scared. But nothing happened, everything is fine. Tomorrow might be different some psycho might just decide to break in but it may never, ever happen so what do I do is the question. I have to stop living in fear.