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I definitely didn't sleep, having all those feelings all over again. But I do know this morning that he most likely won't remember, I think he was in a blackout, and he won't check his text messages, so it's like the rest of our time together: it never happened and I don't exist.QUOTE]
I literally dream about getting this call from my exABF. I’m still numb because he had threatened to leave for years but finally did a couple of months ago. As much as I want that call it would be in a blackout moment and yep he wouldn’t remember or act on it unless his life was really in shambles. He has stopped drinking instead he is using a CBD product. Something I had begged him to do for years. Seems like he is having success with it. He wouldn’t try it with me. Speaks volumes. I know this and all the wisdom spoken by all of you. But my heart is still broken and has long way to heal if ever.