Confidence (rather, the lack thereof) played a significant role in my perpetual relapses. I didn't have any and didn't have a way to get any. You know what I mean? Some people can do that fake it til you make it stuff, but I just can't. People would say, 'just do it one day at a time,' but that was too much for my little brain. Overwhelming. Forever? What is that, even?
I finally decided that I could Never Drink Now.
It's always now, right?
So when the cravings or other beasties came crawling or oozing or screaming out of the cupboard, I would remind myself that I Never Drink Now and damn the beasties.
Still do that.
Some time later, it still works for me.
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