I’m sorry that you feel this pain. Wouldn’t it be great if detaching, finding joy, and taking care of yourself just was a finger snap and it’s all ok? Crap no it isn’t, and I think I’m a few weeks or months behind where you are in this “process”. But the statement of time healing is the only thing I can find some clarity and hope in. I hope you can also. Because right now the manure is deep and we’re wondering if our boots are tall enough to keep it out. I can only say that my heart goes out to you Kayla and I’m pulling for you! I don’t have enough experience in this yet to give good sage advice. But as I read your posts I can feel the ache in your heart and the holes on your soul that need healing.