Hi LK,
Sorry that you had a sad day full of crying. You are under a lot of stress right now. You have a full-time job, bills, getting everything in your name, and the pain of a divorce. Any one of those things can bring stress, You are having to deal with all of them. You are going to feel overwhelmed at times. You are handling just fine. Yes, you cried. It’s your way of handling stress. We each have our ways of dealing with stress and anger. I tend to clean to deal with stress and anger. If you suppress it, it will only get worse.
Do whatever you need to do to get through the day. If that means saying things out loud (or writing them) for the universe to hear, then do it. It will help. Positive thought brings positive energy to your mind and body.
I know the pain of everything you are going through can be a lot to handle. You just want all of this sadness to be done with. This unfortunately takes time to get back to that happy place. You had 7 years of being treated like you were not worthy of the great, kind, and passionate person you are. You just need to seize the day and know it will be better than the past. You have learned and continue to learn what you need to be happy. You will get that passion for things back. You will find love again. Be kind to yourself and do the things that bring joy and happiness to your heart and soul. You will that life you yearn for. Keep being strong.