Originally Posted by
Leftinthedust 
Don’t know if I’ll ever figure out what I did that was so bad that she’d seek solace in someone else…
The thing is, it isn't you. It was her choice to cheat on you and your marriage, just as it's been her choice to drink, and to say and do all the things she's said and done. Her choices, all of them.
I'm not saying you're perfect, no one is. I'm saying she is making choices, and it really has nothing to do with you. Remember the three C's: you d
idn't Cause it, you can't Control it and you can't Cure it.