So you feel you have 20/30 years left, and while you may have indicated that’s all you have left, your also upset at the years you put in with your partner, it also means you do have 20/30 years left. That’s a long time. That’s an opportunity to live differently if you should chose too. You can consider what you want your last decades to look like…
Think of your future if he comes crawling back. I’m proud of you taking the house off the market. I also think advbike codependency books reading might be a good suggestion. Thanks for reaching out, you’ll get a lot of support here.