Do read the link TroubleAfoot posted if you need it TS.
I think a lot of us have felt that way - especially in that immediate post drinking despair.
I’m glad now I stuck around - I would have missed out of a lot of great things and good years.
The real courage is in facing the fear and living a sober life.
We are stronger and more capable than we know.
If I can do it, you can too
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