I hope you feel all better, Dee!
TC, I hope you finally had some rest.
Willow, have you thought about asking your family to skip a year? You would be perfectly within your rights to do that, in my opinion. Maybe you and your husband can go on a small trip right over the holiday.
I get that 'maybe just only on holidays, or special occasions, or whatever,' sometimes, too. But I have so much experience with failure, that it kind of is an asset to me now. I've had so many 'just this once' screw-ups. I have beat that poor horse to death. (That may not be a saying in other countries... I promise no animals were harmed in the creation of my addiction)
Not that all that try and fail makes me immune to the AV. It seems to know just how to make me believe the most preposterous lies. But, it does help. I think of all that when I think of a drink.
Anyway, today was very long and boring. Orientation. I'm doing pretty good.
I hope everyone is.