In early sobriety, I was a wreck! My moods were all over the place. I'd wake up all hours of the night and go out walking in the dark. It was the only thing to alleviate the anxiety and the nagging feelings of impending doom and suicidal ideations. I called my sponsor every morning as soon as I thought he was up in the hopes he could talk me down from the ledge. One of those mornings he asked me something that stuck with me ever since. "What is the worst thing that could happen TODAY?" Usually, nothing in particular was going to happen, at least nothing that would warrant the daily anxiety attacks. Recovery is a challenge, but you can only move forward so long as you do not drink. Keep attending those meetings if they're helping you. Reach out to people. You will likely find many who can relate to what you're going through. There are plenty of them here on SR, too. You're not alone.