Congrats on 100 days!
Sorry you are starting to look at the drinking through that clouded lens. Maybe stay close, journal a bit?
Its normal for the brain to look for the best in memories of the past.
I don’t know why, but I never looked at nicotine as something I ever wanted to do again—realized I couldn’t be a sometimes smoker—, and now quickly approaching 34 years nicotine free.
Alcohol has been different. So easy to look at the past and not see all the horror. Perhaps because I’ve burnt brain cells while drinking hence don’t remember. Idk.
Prayers for you with a new resolve to squelch the urges. It’s poison.