Originally Posted by
Greensoul3982 
He got wasted at the casino and broke down crying in the men's restroom yelling out the he.lost the love of his life, ME. Then a couple days later he is back to telling me with absolute certainty he fell out of love with me and that he is very heart broken over it. I don't know what to believe. He doesn't remember crying over me. He was blacked out. Will I ever know how he really feels. Should I believe him in his meth induced state that he is completely over me.?
Hi Greensoul, I'm sorry he has snuck back in to your life.
Yes, you should believe him that he is completely over you. He knows what he wants (drugs, gambling, meth etc) and he knows he can't have a relationship and have those things too. Most of the time, well really pretty much all of the time, the addict will choose the drugs over anyone and anything - he had to make a choice and he has.
This is not about you personally, this is about him and his drugs.
He can't love you, his life is drugs, his focus is drugs, not you, not work, not friends or family, drugs.
Please re-read your sentence above and really let that sink in. He got wasted in a casino and cried in the bathroom. Is this the guy you want to pair up with?
Why you don't think you deserve more in a relationship with someone (whether romantic or not) is the real question here. Put him to one side, please focus back on yourself, there is nothing there with him for you besides more hurt, more pain and more disillusionment. I hope you know that (he knows that).
What if a friend treated you like he has, would you still want to be their friend? Probably not. You deserve a partner who treats you with respect and
kindness. I hope you will read the book Ann suggested, I think you will find it has a lot of value.