Ann, thank you for your response. To answer your question. I would want to. This scares me more than anything. What is wrong with me? He was it for me and as soon as meth was added to his life our life exploded. I got no closure, no say in anything. He was just done with me. Before drugs he told everyone how much he loved me and said 80 years was not enough. Then he just drops me like a newspaper. He said he was no longer in love with me. My feelings, even after all he has done, are still there. Again, what the hell is wrong with me? He says he still loves me deeply but doesn't ever see us together again. So why is he calling me? It kills me to hear his voice over the phone and know that my heart will never be is home again. I just can hardly bare it. 😢