I've been through some rough times since I stopped drinking in 2020. The way I look at it now is each event is a test. And with each test I pass, I become stronger. I'm at the point now where it doesn't come to me to drink in times of stress. Alcohol only works to extend the misery! Sure, you'll get your quick fix but it does not compare to living on solid sober ground.
My #1 rule is to NEVER EVER romanticize alcohol. EVERY relapse is proceeded by thoughts of drinking (IMO). What you are going through will pass with time and new things will come in, if you stay sober.
Keep going. You will get your wins at the end of the day. The biggest win for me came about 2 months ago but I had to punch in over a year sober to get my reward. It was so worth it.
Sending comforting vibes your way
