This site can really work newfella but you need to post here before you drink. We can help you make better choices.
As for the meds - you’re really setting yourself up to having to fight two addictions the longer you self medicate. Addictions not always about euphoria. The more you use something to sleep, or not to feel bad, the more dependent you become upon it.
I’m guessing you already have some drinking and driving on your licence, which is why you don’t want to see a Doc?
but you’re really setting yourself up for a situation where your licence is the least of your worries man.