Thank you for posting - I have found all the replies here really helpful.
All I can say is that I have been trying to get sober for four years now and it has been the hardest thing I have ever had to do. I imagine that it was extremely hard for you too and so have done so well. Remember that a few glasses of wine could really lead anywhere and I'm thinking that it is just not worth taking that chance and the chance that your whole world will be turned upside down.
Stay strong and work through it. Sending love and support x