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You can do all of that and more by getting drunk off wine... but why? What is so horrible about the brain working, being responsible, and caring that makes you want to escape them?

I worked damn hard to become all of those things (as I well imagine you did also). Those things are rewards, not something to escape.

Real life can be work at times, but at the end my drinking was hell all the time, 24/7. The so called "fun times" were long gone, never to return, any more than I can become a care free 5 year old once again. Ain't gonna happen.

I have never regretted not drinking. I have regretted drinking lots.