Originally Posted by
Haris2014 
53 weeks ago I told myself I was giving up alcohol for a year..I did this as committing to a lifetime was quite daunting and I had failed after 5 or 6 months multiple times over multiple years going for the big “never again”
The first thing that I thought when I read this is that of course you're going to crave. You've done your year, and your AV expects it's reward. It's been waiting a whole year for this. You're AV is you, and you have been waiting for that drink, because you weren't planning to quit. You may not have been conscious of this, but you set it up. You did prove you could go a year without drinking. That's clearly a victory. But drinking after your victory is clearly a defeat. It's like vanquishing your enemy in a war, and then turning over your women, children, and all your possessions to your foe. What was the purpose of winning the war?