Recommitting to being sober
The good folks of SR,
53 weeks ago I told myself I was giving up alcohol for a year..I did this as committing to a lifetime was quite daunting and I had failed after 5 or 6 months multiple times over multiple years going for the big “never again”
but my AV has been chirping up lately and today especially as the Uk’s COVID freedom day arrived...i have been trying to rationalise drinking again..I did what I set out to do...a year proves you are not as bad as you were...it’s freedom day after all..etc..etc.
now, I am in no danger of drinking but have really noticed that my early coping skills have all but dried up as the urges diminished over this last year. I don’t want to have to white knuckle it out so I feel like I need to make this a permanent state of mind and say loudly and proudly “I am not drinking for good”
last week I would have said my commitment was unshakeable...stay vigilant, as these urges really blindsided me
ok...I feel better for typing that out..thanks for listening/reading
haris